When you're gone.

Today i'm quite exhausted. How do I keep myself from thinking of the obvious that's pounding at my head at every opportunity? Walking on the road where at every alternate step lies a huge pot hole that I must avoid getting suckered into. Sidestep the rain that's intent on drenching me, sell a dummy, shuffle to the right. Yet, it's still you.

And i caught a fever instead.


11th Oct.
sometimes i don't know what else to do. This is one of those days when i uncover the shielding stones and have no strength to lift them back. The last goodbye took it all. I can still smell your scent in the air I breathe. Can you tell them not to go so soon.. Next week can't come fast enough. And i'm running out of time and words to say to you..


29th Sept.
I feel suffocated the moment I step away from you. My heart heavy, sinks to the floor. Dragging behind my feet. Surrounded by the madding crowd yet I stand there as lonely as a single leaf dropping and falling through the winter cold.

Think. Yes you have alot to think about. I like you best when you're sleepy.. When you don't remember to pretend that I'm just a stranger. This is you. And this is me. Even ifyou wash off my memories and change my heart, I'll still remember us. You live in me. You're a part of me. Like snowflake is to winter. Like sunshine is to day. You're the eternal sunshine of my spotless mind.


19th Sept.
I want to confess that just now, for a fleeting second, I really did not think of you. I nearly choke on a fish bone.

Then in the next moment, I realised I was wrong. For even if I lay there dying, the only person I want to be with, is still you.