On the eve of the day

I'm glad I was locked in my room when it happened, shielded by the four walls closing in on me. So swift and sudden, everything that I've been trying to put down for so long all came together in a gust and washed me out. Every bits and pieces of pain and grief, swallowed down in strength and bravery, re-visited me, swept pass me, through me, coursing through every single vein and arteries inside of me, this flaccid bag of emotions. swamped over, i was powerless. it was ruthless.

you answered, but i was choked. could barely say goodbye.

Did i surprise you that I lasted this long?