A thousand times over

This is a tragic love story.

When she loved, he couldn't find his. How she waited, and how he searched, the future was never clear.

He tried hard to love back, too hard perhaps, and never realised how happy he already was. One day there was a silly incident, a moment of folly and he ended things.

Then he gradually found his long dead heart and the feelings that he held, long suppressed by shadows lurking from the past. He found love, his and theirs, and wanted to embrace her as always, tell her what she had waited to hear all along. But suddenly her heart was dead, she told him. Lost, perhaps to someone else. She won't change her mind, he can't change the story's ending.

When she loved, he couldn't find his.
When he finally did, she had already lost hers.

He believes she hasn't forgotten it all, yet she refuses to acknowledge whatever floundering feelings that flies in her heart. She thinks it's not fair to whoever. But is it fair to themselves, the long suffering hearts? He will keep holding on to the pen, but will she ever change this tragic love story?..

If there's someone who loves you wholeheartedly, but you can't love back, give yourself a slap. If your heart doesn't change, give yourself another slap and think again, feel again. If you finally love back but it's already too late, you'd have wished you had slapped and questioned yourself a thousand times before.

I did. I searched and asked myself for 21 months, but still I was one slap and a step too late. Now I can't say enough I love yous.