Dark waters

when too much was on my mind, and i wondered where you were

If I lie on the sea
  and drift with the tides
Will it carry me back
  to the beginnings?

A full moon cuts into the night
  hear the currents an uneven rhyme
One after another
  plight upon plight
They wait for me
  to join their ranks

Will you cry
  if I plunge a knife
into this cancerous heart

Or will you
  save it like the shooting star
That you so longed for

This heart
  this very heart
to which you first gave life


not since the august of this year, have i slept in peace.
when can i dream of you again and not wake up, missing