before goodbye. silently you left

the rain outside wouldn't stop pouring, but it will stop sooner or later. the sky will run out of tears too.

i tried to remember the last few times that you called me on your own free will. sadly, it wasn't difficult.

you called to ask about places to bring your parents for dinner

you called to ask how to get to the chicken rice coffee shop

you called to ask where the polyclinic is

you called to ask how to direct the cab driver to your new place

then you will hang up.

i feel so special.
.

5 or 6pm. to pass you the present. you said you'll call after meeting your family. i knew you wouldn't. you didn't. you were somewhere else instead. 12.30am. i was waiting downstairs with the present for you. i told you a day ago. i told you it won't take long. but you wouldn't. you said you're tired. too tired to open the door and take the lift down and take the lift up. you sound irritated. i felt brutally wounded. it was so difficult. good thing the place was deserted. it became a farewell present.

the rain got heavier.